Who is God to me?

Many people know God, and he is the One. However, everyone meets different God. In other words, God has come to us with various ways, even if a bible has been the one and God has been the one. This is because we all have a different character. If so, who is God to you? If someone asks me, I will answer that God is an architect. You know that architect not only builds a house but also tears down it. God has come to me with both figures.

   When I met God at first, I invited him to a house of my mind. I expected that he would upgrade my life, so I allowed him to get involved in a house of my mind. I thought that there are many blessing on his hand. However, he showed up with a hammer and a power saw. He began to cut my house. I was embarrassed by his offense. In detail, I wanted to be a mathematics teacher, because I hope to share the gospel with students and I was very good at math. To achieve the dream, I studied hard and prayed to God. However, he denied my demand. I ruined the math test at the first attempt. At the second, I did well on the test, but my parents opposed my opinion. Although my dream was what I planned for God, when the dream destroyed, I had to go through a hard time. Another reason that I felt God is an architect closed by a destroyer is that he made my family suffer. In the specific, my mother always prayed for our family at dawn, but my father’s business was in bad shape. I had to see a poor person who is with God and a rich person who don’t know God. I could not understand why God made the situation, and I was sure that he wanted to demolish my mind.

   Then one day, I felt God different when I was praying. I stopped looking the destroyed house and despairing mind, and I looked back. Amazingly, there was a palace in there. Only then could I know what God’s will was. God had to totally rebuild my mind house, not to remodel in order to rescue me. In other words, notwithstanding a God’s palace, it was not enough to serve God. It was enough to be a reason that I was left out. However, he wanted to me and he finally achieved his will. In detail, I realized what God want when I was suffering from a problem that was about my major for God. He didn’t want that I do something for him. He just wanted me. He hoped to make a palace to me, not a math teacher. He wanted that I depend on him and don’t do something myself. My family also realized a God’s way when we were in trouble. My father got a habit to pray via hardships.

For these reasons, I believe God is the best architect. He has expressed his love for me by making a house of my mind become a palace. Sometimes, he destroys me for this, but it is okay because it is one of a rescue course. At the end, God will complete the architecture in my mind.